I wish I could write songs. No really, some times I find song lyrics so beautiful and explaining what I'm trying to say so wonderfully, that I feel like crying. Gaahh.
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Woohoo. Seems like Twilight fever is FINALLY over. But boohoo. Seems like New Moon fever has started. Tell me whats worse. Ugh. Like, I was in my new uni's computer lab, with a bunch of people I don't really know, but am trying really hard to like. And all they want to talk about is that stupid damn movie. And when I, honest as could be, declared that I absolutely hated Twilight and everything to do with it, they shrunk back from me in horror as if I had the swine flu. Whatevs.
But seriously. I really believe that the Twilight saga is getting way way more attention than it deserves. It's being over-hyped. Over-worshipped. Over-attention-given. Over-liked. Over-loved. Overly-plastered-over-bumperstickersonfacebook. Don't you? [no, i do not really want you to answer this if you're not gonna say yes] Honest to God, I can think of so many books/movies that are well deserving of the readership/viewership the Twilight Saga is snatching away.
Which reminds me. Something scares me. Sometimes, I read something, and find it so lovely. But then I forget about it. There must be millions of such lovely things I've read; books, quotes, lyrics, whatever; that have completely slipped from my mind. That makes me so awefully sad. Wish I could properly organize my brain. Have folders. And favourites. And a history tab.
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My blogpost is in a weird format. Perhaps this will continue in the future as well. Please bear with me. I can't think about one particular thing for very long these days. As if something much superior is occupying a greater part of my brain. So, sorry and all that shizz. Oh and please please, can someone properly explain to me what tumblr is all about. I'm positively fascinated by it, but it makes me feel lost.
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I can make myself feel more awkward than anyone else can. I just feel like I should point that out.
Also, I know I do stupid things, react in the most inappropraite ways, say the worst words I can, I always do. Spoils everything completely at times. Puts me into situations that I don't know how to get out of. And what gets me the most is how I can do that, but still feel in a way that is practically opposite to how it seems. It's very bizarre. I am a strange child.
-Chelsea
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
okay. don't read this.
today,
i am writing a blogpost. after like, a gazillion-and-one years.
today,
i rediscovered this little gem i loved when i first started browsing dA: [link]
today,
i am a seventeen-year-old whose going to turn eighteen in a few months but has done absolutely NOTHING useful or interesting in her entire life. woot.
today,
i am confused, dreading and about-to-be-complicated and scared and wondering about things and wondering if i am being wondered about.
Its just one of those stupid days when you feel so restless and unwanted. Scarily, I've been having alot of these stupid days. Anywho (yeah, did you notice that? some people use that instead of 'anyhow', and its freaking annoying, so STOP)
I didn't use capital letters in the first part of my post. It was kind of an experiment you see. I was thinking about this last night. Thinking that capitalizing letters draws attention to certain letters and makes them seem more important when they are not, but are just the same as all the other letters. Thinking that capitalizing 'i' is a very selfish thing to do, and wondering why it is done.
Wow, wish I made sense.
Actually I've been having 'issues' with letters on the whole. Not just what I mentioned, I've also been reading words wrong. Like, untie seems united, and evolve looks like love. Hehe, no one ever has 'issues' with letters. But excuse me I'm bored and I'd like to pretend that I'm not. ( No, I don't normally use 'hehe' but it somehow felt right here) And that reminds me, 'Love is in the air'. No thats not a song (um, it probably IS) but I just kind of feel alot of loving going on. Por ejemplo, Q, even though she's not near me right now, must be lying on her bed waiting for a certain 'someone' in the land of Taj Mahal to text back. Haha! And Honeybee, must be replaying the wonderful details of her meetupcoughdate with the amazing lead-guitarist of Watertone yesterday, in her head. *Insert the hideous emoticon you get when you type colon p on skype*
Its okay to be in love though, I've concluded. If it really is love I mean. Not lust or attraction or just plain dumbassness. If you really actually find somebody whom you like spending time with and whom you can talk to about absolutely anything in the world, then that ought to be okay. I've concluded this because I really didn't believe in love before. But things change. Or people do. Or both..I dunno.
Note: No, this was not a confession.
Another note: This was the most pointless blogpost in the history of pointless blogposts and if you do not read it, you'd be doing me a big favour. But since you've gotten to the end, and are reading this note, it probably means that you've finished reading already and all I've got to say to that is. THANKS A BUNCH, YOU SUCK.
- Chelsea
i am writing a blogpost. after like, a gazillion-and-one years.
today,
i rediscovered this little gem i loved when i first started browsing dA: [link]
today,
i am a seventeen-year-old whose going to turn eighteen in a few months but has done absolutely NOTHING useful or interesting in her entire life. woot.
today,
i am confused, dreading and about-to-be-complicated and scared and wondering about things and wondering if i am being wondered about.
Its just one of those stupid days when you feel so restless and unwanted. Scarily, I've been having alot of these stupid days. Anywho (yeah, did you notice that? some people use that instead of 'anyhow', and its freaking annoying, so STOP)
I didn't use capital letters in the first part of my post. It was kind of an experiment you see. I was thinking about this last night. Thinking that capitalizing letters draws attention to certain letters and makes them seem more important when they are not, but are just the same as all the other letters. Thinking that capitalizing 'i' is a very selfish thing to do, and wondering why it is done.
Wow, wish I made sense.
Actually I've been having 'issues' with letters on the whole. Not just what I mentioned, I've also been reading words wrong. Like, untie seems united, and evolve looks like love. Hehe, no one ever has 'issues' with letters. But excuse me I'm bored and I'd like to pretend that I'm not. ( No, I don't normally use 'hehe' but it somehow felt right here) And that reminds me, 'Love is in the air'. No thats not a song (um, it probably IS) but I just kind of feel alot of loving going on. Por ejemplo, Q, even though she's not near me right now, must be lying on her bed waiting for a certain 'someone' in the land of Taj Mahal to text back. Haha! And Honeybee, must be replaying the wonderful details of her meetupcoughdate with the amazing lead-guitarist of Watertone yesterday, in her head. *Insert the hideous emoticon you get when you type colon p on skype*
Its okay to be in love though, I've concluded. If it really is love I mean. Not lust or attraction or just plain dumbassness. If you really actually find somebody whom you like spending time with and whom you can talk to about absolutely anything in the world, then that ought to be okay. I've concluded this because I really didn't believe in love before. But things change. Or people do. Or both..I dunno.
Note: No, this was not a confession.
Another note: This was the most pointless blogpost in the history of pointless blogposts and if you do not read it, you'd be doing me a big favour. But since you've gotten to the end, and are reading this note, it probably means that you've finished reading already and all I've got to say to that is. THANKS A BUNCH, YOU SUCK.
- Chelsea
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